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Saturday, July 24th, 2010

Subject:fuck this shit
Time:11:26 pm.

fuck this shit, fuck this shit, fuck this shit.  Im writing in this after a million years of not writing in this, and all i want to say is fuck this shit.  I am living alone again after a 7 year lapse of sanity.  There were few good times lots of bad times, and just a lot of hanging out letting life pass me by.  Its such a fucking mess, but i am okay with that... because its my life and im going to make the most of it from this point out.  I need a vacation.  I am drinking alone, I re-read posts from this thing when I lived alone-- drinking alone, and wow.  Its like being 24 all over again. Dating in your 30s is really fucking weird.  I do belive in unicorns and say things like fantastical, romantical, and talk a lot about dinosaurs.  fantastical.  Im whimsical.


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Sunday, March 30th, 2008

Subject:feet
Time:10:53 pm.
My feet are so nasty.  Scott got us a pedegg and its like  an egg shapped rasp that collects all the foot shavings.  I just used it, and i think i need professional help.   
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Saturday, March 29th, 2008

Subject:I feel the need....
Time:7:27 pm.
 To write in this today.  Nothing is going on.  My life is pretty much still the same.  I've had a couple of different jobs since.  I now manage a store selling clothing.  Its pretty cool, but expensive.  And it makes me ill when i have to dress size 0 women who complain about how fat their knees are.   Now that im writing in this I really dont have much to say.  I do like my hair in that picture,  plus i look pretty slim.  That was a very different space in time, It was like 5 years ago, and i think it was taken right after i moved back to bmore after my 3 week stint in arlington.  I was drunk a lot back then.  Blah.  i need to eat.  I was supposed to go to a strip club tonight, but Scott has a kidney stone and its causing him a great deal of pain.  Whats for dinner?  I have a horrible craving for taco bell, all i ate today was a whole grain bagel, and 5 peices of prepacked sushi from tjs that was effing nasty.   My new jacket is pilling a bit and its making me angry.  I was supposed to get my brows done today too but i didnt.  Thats something new and exciting, i've been trying to grow them in, and its pretty hilarious.   I've been a compulsive tweezer for half my life now, and I also like to pull the hairs out when im anxious,  so they grow in all kinds of crazy.   I think im going to give it another day or two.  I feel cromag.  Damn i just realized i was pulling at them right now.  Ugh.    Wow i feel caught up.
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Wednesday, October 12th, 2005

Time:6:17 pm.
Okay so like last night i went out for a few drinks with company co-workers, and well like on my ride home i got pulled over... i cut through umbc, and as i was turning out of the campus an officer pulls me over. Im in total panic... omg i cant go to jail or get a dui, so i managed to stay cool, i had a hard time getting my liscense out of my new wallet, and he told me he pulled me over for a few things, ie... not using my turn signal and not comming to a compleate stop, or something or other. Well, my back light on my side is out, or was out until today... so he couldnt see my turn signal or break light. Regardless, i was not pulled over for drunk driving... i got a work order and a warning for the stop sign... but i am never going to drive even after 1 beer now... that was scary.
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Sunday, October 9th, 2005

Time:6:08 pm.
Where have all my internet friends gone too? hey guys??? remember when i was a slut?
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Thursday, September 29th, 2005

Time:6:45 pm.
after being without a computer for the past um 9 months, i am finally back and ready for action. tonight is scott and my 2nd aniversary. i am alive and well, i have been compleatly internet cut off for the past several months and my god, hmmm, well i didnt really miss it. My store is doing fantastic and i am living in catonsville once again. I cant seem to leave this place, nor do i really want to. The commute to silver spring everyday isnt that bad, the money is worth it and i am finally doing something that i want to be doing. There are people out here that i have lost touch with, if you are one of them... i miss you. my email address is back, its the same one as it was before a long time ago. if you still have it saved props to you. im just happy to have access to this stuff again, and i know in my past couple of posts ive said i would get back into the habbit of using this thing, but who am i kidding. my life is work, tv, sleep, work, work work, food, more food and more work. the cat is trying to climb into my lap, must go. I will be 27 in less than a week. yeeeeeeeesh.
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Saturday, April 9th, 2005

Subject:wheres waldo?
Time:1:58 am.
so i havent written in this thingy since january, or december even-- i'm not sure and havent bothered to check. This past february, i spent a few days in the hospital for an asthma attack, which prompted me to quit smoking, this coming tuesday it will have been 10 weeks since my last cigarette... cold turkey, going strong. I havent cheated once. I have also thrown myself into work... and it finally paid off today (which is the real reason why im writing this) after working for the past ten years in retail (totally wasting my time with college). I am finally at the top of the schedule... i am a store manager... at the downtown silver spring location none the less. Its odd being there, the spot where my store is used to be a gas station, where i bought some of my first packs of cigarettes. Staffing is a pain in the ass, so if anyone has retail sales experience, loves decorating, can work days and doesnt mind a bit of hard labor and housekeeping... stop in and see me. anyways its 2am and i just had a big bowl of pasta... which i already regret... because its bedtime and i dont want to go to sleep with that on my stomach... ive also had a couple of drinks and am extreamly tired.
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Sunday, December 19th, 2004

Time:12:39 am.
Mood: sad.
Kevin, i got your package, it rocks. more later, i am going to the post office on monday... if it makes it there by saturday... it will be a true xmas miracle.
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Saturday, November 20th, 2004

Time:11:29 pm.
Ive been realizing ive been saying blah blah a lot when i cant conjure up the word for something, i got this from stephanie at work... im sure she would be pleased to know ive picked up on her thang. Work was long and boring today and everyone was a little extra giddy for some reason or another, and we all had a lot of fun, so i guess it wasnt really boring. Last night a woman attacked me, saying i was being hostile towards her, and that i was making her uncomfortable, and it was pretty funny... afterwards. Sooo after work i went over to the mall and got some really cool shoes that im very happy with, i searched long and hard, I wasnt sure what i was looking for exactly, but i did learn that pointy toed shoes look really really stupid on me, but then I happened upon them as i was leaving the store. They are teal esprits, with a kitten heal, they have little sliver stars around the opening, and a silver ribbon above the stars, and i love them so much. I dont know what i will ever wear them with, but im in love with them, so maybe everything. even though they look really silly right now i am trotting around the house in them. the end
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Tuesday, November 16th, 2004

Time:3:58 pm.
im watching dr phil... real live desperate housewives. blah. so today I had my day in traffic court, i got pbj, so thats fine and dandy. Stoopid speed traps. there were like 50 people there pulled over in that same spot on that same day... i mean seriously. The cat is watching over my shoulders and i just want to nuzzle him to his death.

I forgot to mention also that this past sunday i went to an AC Moore for the first time ever... omg i could drop some serious dolllars there on yarn... like good yarn. not just the usual crap at michaels and jo anns, yarn i actually want to knit with. soo many colors and textures, real wool, and casmire. I mean really, like 4 aisles of yarn, and fancy needles. I am so happy i have knitting in my life, it is so comforting, and satisfying.
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Sunday, November 14th, 2004

Time:11:50 pm.
today was a very good day... yes yes indeed. Soooo today scott and i both had off so i slept in, then we went to the bed bath and beyond in owings mills to pick up some transfer scott had to take to work, then we hit up the double t-- this is my first double T experience in like 5 months and the breakfast special made me very very happy. Sooo then we went up to towson, to drop off that transfer and we bought sheets, forks, and miracle foot cream, with his additional discount coupon... so yeah we got really nice sheets again, then we went to white marsh, and went to best buy and i got the new nancy sinatra album which im in love with, and the sandlot on dvd, for my a part of my brothers birthday present. And then we saw "saw"... and it was um, kinda stupid, kinda good, and carey ellwis cant act, and hes still really handsome. and yeah i think i liked it, but it didnt have an ending, and oh we had popcorn. we never get popcorn. OKAY bedtime. blah blah.
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Tuesday, October 26th, 2004

Time:8:19 pm.
its great pumpkin time, SNOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOPY!!! *Doing the snoopy dance around the house)
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Sunday, October 24th, 2004

Time:6:24 pm.
So the last time i wrote in this thing it was august and i had just found out that i had a new job. New job has started and im seriously bored shitless, it is the most mind numbing retail job i have ever experienced. And I dont mind one bit. My pay checks have totally rocked, and for once i have a money to spend on fun things like the Arrested Development DVD, which along with the most recent Mr Show, and Family Guy, Scott and I have been watching constantly. Ive also been dropping some dough on new clothes, which is good, cos im getting fat again. Ahh well. Im also considering going off my medication, speaking of, because the last time i did that for a year i lost 30 lbs. which i could stand to do, plus since it will be another month before i have insurance, i dont really want to shell out the $200 it cost me last month. We saw Shaun of the dead last night, I really liked it. Scott saw it last week, but he went again with me last night.
I had a birthday earlier this month. It was allright, i was in a bad mood most of the day, because i was starting to get sick. I got a new drivers licence, and went to lunch at the papermoon with cat for some girl time. We then took the dogs for a walk, and when i came home scott made me mac and cheese for dinner. So since im late, i wont cut and past to lj, entries from my past three birthdays like i usually do, but to recap my 25th year of life-- I've been with scott for the past year, so no real raunchy sexual escapades to speak of, i did leave my job of five years and started a new one. And i gained enough confidence in myself to actually leave my job.. still retail, but in all honesty as depressing as it sometimes seems, the money is allright, the schedule is okay, and I have fun doing it. So i really cant complain. I know im meant for something bigger and i really think that big thing is being a mommy someday. So until that day comes, i will be content with what i have.
My father was in town this weekend, and I went out to lunch with him and my brother and step-mother. we went to tgifridays.... and my stomach is killing me. I always feel a lot better after ive seen him, its been almost a year, and he still has a nasty mullet, and new tattoos. Meanwhile my step father, has been in the hospital a lot lately, with heart problems... and its stressing the hell out of my mom.
Scott is with his family today up in New Jersey, I made his niece a hat with little ears, I hope it fit.
And now im off to Pier1 in glen burnie to their friends and family night, because although i am no longer employed with them, they still consider me a friend and family. Its odd that the one store that invited me, or took the time rather to stop into my job and invite me, is the one i only spent 5 months in... They are good people. Im rambling now.
My computer still has herpes. and its been really hard to update. i miss my LJ though and im going to try my best to get back into the swing of things. Ive had this thing too long to give up now.
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Tuesday, August 31st, 2004

Time:6:12 pm.
HEY GUESS WHAT THE FUCK!!!???
I got a new job!!!! yes, still in retail, and yes with a competetor, and yes, i'll be making a lot more money an hour than what i currently make. HA! TAKE THAT PIER FUCKING 1, im outta there. Kiss my bumper. JUST KISS IT!!! BWAHAHAH
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Thursday, August 26th, 2004

Subject:oh yeah
Time:11:12 pm.
I can now knit hats too
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Time:10:49 pm.
shit i thought i might have had something to say, but i guess i dont really.
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Thursday, August 5th, 2004

Subject:...
Time:1:34 pm.
whats new, whats new? Im to the point with one of my dearest friends that i need some time away. I am angry with her for constantly telling me how to live my life. I am tired of dealing with her insecurities, and her need to be the center of it all. It all should blow over in about a week but for now im on a bit of a hiatus.
Last friday night i took cat and judy to the last mike roy show to meet up with drew for the first time in ages and it was very refreshing to see him and others i havent seen in a while. on saturday scott and i went out to an aweful chinese buffett, and then saw napleon dynamite, which we will forever be quoting for the rest of our lives. sunday and monday were nothing special. Tuesday night drew came over with a lady friend and scott and i hosted our first minor dinner party, then we all went out to club chuck and drank the night away. It felt really good to be out with other people for once. new faces are always welcome and refreshing. yesterday i finished 'wicked' it was allright. im not sure if i really liked it all that much, the middle went on forever and the ending was way to breif, and it just may well have ruined the wizard of oz for me, it made me sympathize with the wicked witch, and turned the rest of oz into a melting political pot. Still a good summertime read. Im going to be picking up another book today, im not sure what yet. but off to barnes and nobel i shall go.
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Friday, July 30th, 2004

Time:6:46 pm.
Today i went to wheaton plaza with my mom, and got a bathing suit. My oh my that place has changed from when i used to work there at pet valu when i was 16. I also saw a character from out of the past... "the pimp" you see back in the day, i had to take the bus to MC or to work, and he would always be at the bus station or wandering the streets of wheaton, by the dunkin donuts or out and about around the mall. He used to wear this red velvet suit with a shirt buttoned down underneath and a pimptastic hat. I remember once seeing him digging through the trash at the metro station and he would come into my store every now and again and get dog food. He would talk to me and call me a fine lookin lady. He was very nice, but definatly a tad on the schitzoid side, i remember one time he went off in the store in a paranoid fit. Anyways he was a bit of an icon and i was happy to see that he is still lurking around weaton plaze muttering to himself. He smiled at me today, and i waved. I dont know, its been at least 7 years since id seen him, so it was a good feeling. my mom was like who the heck is that, and i was like mom, its the pimp. Anyways enough about that. Scottish and i have been sick the past week or so, and im finally better. Im currently reading "wicked" the life and times of the wicked witch of the west, and so far it seems worthy of a broadway musical. the cat is sitting on my lap, and i think ive actually learned to love the baby beaco. maybe i'll take pictures of him and post them one day or another.
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Sunday, July 18th, 2004

Subject:blap!
Time:11:53 pm.
Lets see since i like to document my drunken moments, thrusday night, bar hopping with cat jason adn judy, drunk... me and judy walk home from the owl bar sometime around 11:30 to her place at 23rd. good times, Friday night i worked, and then saturday scottish and i had off we went to artscape with the people previously mentioned, then all of us sans jason went bar hopping once again... drunk. Today was dull, i went to a meeting at work, tried to find a good strapless bra, which i cant seem to find, nothing can hold these babies up, and came home and ate lots of cheese. My favorite thing about living very close to pikesville is goldbergs bagels on reisterstown rd. I havent eaten there yet, but it makes me smile. FIN end of story.
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Thursday, July 8th, 2004

Subject:I WANNA HUFF ALL NIGHT! HEY!
Time:1:35 pm.
scott and i watched jawbreaker last night and then he put on the donnas and i was transported back to 1998. i totally forgot how funny that song is. ba da da da da hey! I WANNA HUFF ALL NIGHT! HEY! I gotta poop.
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